I took my first hydrocodone when I was sixteen due to an injury while playing tennis. I finally blew out my shoulder at 18 and realized the pain pills gave me a buzz when I took them, even when I was not hurting. Back then I could take as prescribed, today I need 45 pills to just feel human. I hate this cycle and want my life back! I have to work so I can get the pills, but I can not work without them and I don't make enough money and can not afford a doctor to scam. I want my life back!!!!!!!!!